I have been wanting to make this post
for two weeks or more now, I am not a perfect person
that much is for sure. I am a heavy drinker
now let’s get one thing straight I am not a violent drinker
the love of my life will back me up on that.
but I have been violent in the past and that is a guilt I will always carry always.
Right the year is 2003 and I am at the end of the worse relationship ever
I have become my Father and I lash out in every argument me and my partner have
it is a huge personality clash and I have no way to deal with it
yeah I have had failed relationships over the years but this is like a war zone
I have survived the mental onslaught that was my father belittling me for years
but now I am him lashing out at will, I have two kids and I am very unhappy
I have spent at least £1000 pounds plus over 6 years on Windows and other stuff I had to break
just to end the fighting, one thing about me if I get angry leave me the Feck alone – do not follow me around like a lost sheep continually fueling a fight that should have been over half an hour ago
Do not accuse me of sleeping with every female I said hello to at work, within 30 seconds of walking in to a staff social event – that shit is just unnecessary.
anyway late 2003 my relationship finally goes into coma and I decide to pack my shit up and leave
I ended up in my employers car park, rough night.
Maybe more on this later, tis a boring life anyway